why fear

gratitude

2009-09-08T08:52:00.000-07:00

I am thankful to you all. All who have made me what I am today. The good part of me. I am solely responsible for the other part of mine. The good that I have inculcated , is the fruit of the seed you sowed into me as some or the other part of my life. Thankyou so much for everything that you have done, that you are doing and that you will keep doing to me. I am grateful to you all for being the part of the process called Life.

I owe you myself at your doorsteps... I owe you for what you all have given to me. I shall pass on your blessings . God bless you all too.

I (1.0)

2009-08-08T14:22:00.000-07:00

I m blank

I m happy

I m void

I m contended...

I m myself

I will be one ..

I do not care

I care for loved

I love

I hate fear

I m strong

I m not wrong

I confess

I profess

I m You

You and I

That's a WE

Worries killed

Strength we build

Miles we walk

None dare to talk

Walk Walk and walking

On the roads of eternity

Lets just fly

To the world to sanity

Scholasticism

2009-08-04T09:02:00.000-07:00

I was looking for the definition of "Ego" and i came across this beautiful term , Scholasticism which defines the complete person comprising both body and soul. These two words make me toddle because I feel the body and soul is somewhere incomplete without the mind. Its the harmony that these three elements share that we can can sustain our life through.
Any sort of imbalance is either of them can give us living pain which is too much to bear. I feel guilty for not having giving time of each one of them as they deserve. To know what's the problem is half the solution but to not being able to act to the other half , is a new problem in its own self. I want to master the art of eternal balancing that helps me sway across this ocean of peaks and valleys. I want to jump into the dark expanse of deep black terrains and let the sharp winds pierce though my closed ears and fluttering eyes. I want to learn to calm myself like those silent waves that just reach the surface of the sea and kiss the winds above and lie down. I want to be like the white snow on the mountains that speak out purity. I want to run run and run till my lungs break apart. I want to dance like the happy bird with full heart and joy..

O !! I feel splendid when I think this... One day, I will do what all i wish for. And one day, i shall kill my Ego and opt for Scholasticsm ... One day, I will free the soul and One day, I shall go back to Nature - where i came from.

And that day, I will scream to the animals that surround me and show them that I LIVED MY LIFE, I LIVED IT MY WAY... I LIVED IT thee WAY....

Law that runs our lives

2009-08-03T10:16:00.000-07:00

She came to have fun, but her eyes didn't seem to have the zeal in them. Those red eyes with a pale smile spoke it all to me, somethings' wrong , she's upset. She truly was. After having heard it all I couldn't stop myself from thinking about the angle she was talking about.

She fears. She totally fears from deep inside. The fear that is bothering her since childhood. The fear of not winning, the fear of not being the deserving.. the fear of happening of what she fears might happen.. the fear of uncertainty...

She completely believes that what she fears is surely going to happen. And what i fear is that, such strong feelings that her mind provokes will make sure that they happen to her. The more she is trying to escape her fear, it simply moving at a higher pace and slapping her right across her face. That's the attraction she has for her fear is totally fatal. She doesn't realize the consequences of her fear is the soul reason of her personality collapse.

How can you surrender yourself to prophecies that are onlyprobabilities in the air with a big, might or might not, scribbled across. Man writes his own Destiny and its the density that writes the Man. Destiny is a transparency we have with our thoughts, our mind set, our attitude and our actions. We are responsible for our Destiny and not visa-verse.

Predictions are like warning signs with Probability less that 1 .Its our thoughts that govern occurrences in our lives. With our mind power we can shoot up the Probabiltiy higher than 1 .Nothing here happens just for the heck of it. Millions of watts of invisible energy floats between us or I should say that we float among this vast expanse of energy that runs out lives.

Every thought that passes, is not void().

Every thought = f(x) where x is un-quantified energy.

This invisible f(x) = dt(life)

And when

dt(life)=0 then

f(x)= scatters into the Universe

So, Why not to turn f(x)= +ve energy and Why not to turn out lifes into +ve entities.

Because all that we think , We receive from the the Universe.

That's the LAW OF ATTRACTION.

Why Fear ?

2009-08-01T23:59:00.000-07:00

The minds' bubbling with a hundred thoughts, all dazzling like comets around...colliding , escaping, tearing, and rejuvenating. Thoughts that take me into to vast expanses of No-Real-All-Wonderland.. where every thought that ends, gives birth to the next one. It's like the next door password is the solution of the current mystery. And the mind tirelessly goes on playing the game itself, none to win and none to loose, just all by itself. What do I get in the end ?

Nothing of all. Just hypothetical mysteries that come and go, leaving me , the observer wonder and gaze above like a child failing to understand whats happening around.

Are these symbols an indication ? Are these dreams my guardian ? What are they trying to convey to me ? Is that my future they reflect upon me ? Is that my past, they throw upon me ?

Why do i fear and shrud ? Why do i be blank and dud ? Why am I spending my today thinking behind thoughts whose existance is not verified ? Why do I cry in my dreams ? Why do I chant shlokas while I'm asleep ? Why am I awake yet so asleep ? Why doesnt my Mind ever sleep ?

Answers that can never be given to me but ME is not to fear.

My spirituality is my weapon, my soul , my heart.. the me in me is the God in me . I know I fail to attempt at times, but the passion does not die. If not today, but One day, I shall stand and answer to Him that I shall justify my purpose to exist.

One day for sure and that day, I shall live like never before. And He will be proud of me and bless me with his heart and soul and I shall finish my circle of joy and pain .. with Him by my side, I shall sleep so peacefully ever and destory the heart that lived in worthless FEAR.